My Top 10 List: 1. Arturia Pendragon (Fate Series) 2. Inaba Himeko (Kokoro Connect) 3. Yui Yuigahama (Yahari Ore no Seishun Love Comedy wa Machigatteiru) 4. Makoto Kikuchi (IdolM@ster) 5. Tsubaki Sawabe (Shigatsu wa Kimi no Uso) 6. Kosaki Onodera (Nisekoi) 7. Linda (Golden Time) 8. Komugi (Hunter x Hunter) 9. Lisanna Strauss (Fairy Tail) 10. Kuroneko [Ruri Gokou] (OreImo)
You should consider ending your life. I would strongly recommend it as I see you are probably lonely irl and probably abused if you have nothing else to do except spoil someone's anime they want to watch.