Everyone is mad.

MaskedMan · May 23, 2016

Shina said: ↑

Yo just let them hate, I used to be like that. "Ew, third panic." "Ew, you edge?"
I used to want to be a "Top Mooner" LMAO
Dam I was a dumb ass lolipop, not I just play for fun, exos and all.
Man you cant take the game seriously..
#idgaf
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@Shina for [GM]

Bored · May 23, 2016

Starberry said: ↑

Do you know what’s strange? The fact that sometimes I don’t like blogging. Yes, I said it. Most bloggers wouldn’t but I did because this is a diary and diaries have no filter. It’s not because I can’t write or I have no motivation, it is literally because I don’t like thinking. Thinking too much makes my head hurt because there is too much inside my head like it’s all jumbled up floating around and it makes no sense. It’s hard to make sentences that make sense and go together because my head is all over the place and it just doesn’t stay still. I think I just put off thinking because when I think too hard, I think about things I don’t want to think about like pain, suicide, people that aren’t happy etc. I don’t like knowing that I can’t help. I can’t help my boyfriend or my grandma or my step-sister or my friends with their problems, I just have to sit there and wait. Wait for something to happen to make them okay. Do you know the pain of waiting? Do you know the feeling of knowing you’re helpless? This is why I don’t like blogging sometimes because it leaves me stripped and vulnerable and even though I try I can’t help you guys either.

Thinking is hard for me… Like really really thinking. Artificial thinking is easy like exams and solving problems but real thinking that’s a challenge because real thinking has no absolute answer… Real thinking means thinking about yourself and who you are and why we’re here and how things are possible. Real thinking is something that drives people mad. Is there a point in real thinking if it drives you mad? Yes. Real thinking is the gateway to the future, the gateway to happiness and the gateway to finding yourself. I may find it hard but all worthwhile things are hard at first. I don’t know if this makes any sense so I apologise.

Do you know what really hurts my head? The future. What uni do I want to go to? What grades will I get? Will I get a job? Will I be okay? I don’t know the answer to any of these questions but one day I will. Maybe that gives me hope to carry on my normal day to day life. Maybe it just makes me fear the day that I know because the answer could be very disappointing. Questions are always a gamble because we ask them without contemplating if we want to know the answer. But we’re humans and humans are curious organisms. Without curiosity we may be happier but we’d be extremely underdeveloped. Curiosity causes the growth of knowledge and knowledge, apparently, is power according to some guy in a book. What I’m really putting off is my personal statement because I’m not smart or interesting or academic on a piece of paper. I like writing fiction or thoughts but I do not like writing how incredible I am. I believe everyone is equal and so making myself seem superior feels so wrong to me. How I’m going to write it I really don’t know! I plan to do it over the summer but we will see I guess. I may post a draft version up for you all to see how lame it is. Exciting eh?

Philosophical question of the week: Is it better to love and lose or never to love? Yes this is a philosophical question I found it on a philosophy website. I personally believe it is better to love and lose but I’ve never really experienced the ‘lose’ part yet so I could change my mind at some point in the future. Losing someone you love is hard, I’ve seen it all around me, people crying and breaking down. It’s not pretty that’s for sure but can you imagine a life without any love? Just think how plain you would feel. The feeling of love is like nothing you can explain and you would do anything to keep it once you have it but if you never had it…. Well, I know I’d be sad. Love is what the world revolves around. If there was no love there would be no caring and people would be almost emotionless because what causes emotions? Love and hate (they are the main links you have to admit). Without love we’re left with hate. I don’t want to be in a world full of hate, do you? Losing someone you love isn’t easy and it feels like you’re being stabbed in the chest but at least you’re feeling something. It’s either happiness then pain or numbness the choice is yours. Actually, it isn’t. You’ll love someone someday and you won’t know why or how. You fall in love without meaning to, you can’t control it. The only thing to prevent it is to put up shields to protect yourself but this isn’t war people! Love is not scary, it is beautiful and magical and if you have it hold on to it.

Sometimes I feel like I’m alive but I’m not really living. I’m just plodding along doing my thing everyday but I feel tired and deflated all the time. I don’t feel excited or elated I just feel average. I’m also an emotional wreck, I feel like I’m on the brink of tears everytime someone says something nice or someone talks about being different or happy or sad or just most things make me want to cry. But I don’t because it’s normally when an advert is on or at a time when people would look at me like I’m crazy for crying. I try to hold it in. My mum said to me earlier that there was girl like me that she counselled…. Everyone perceived her as strong-willed and emotionless but really she was so sensitive deep down. She couldn’t handle her emotions… If she said something she may just breakdown so she didn’t. Everyone got her wrong, she was a different person on the inside. But no one ever gets to see that do they? When she said that I wanted to cry and breakdown and tell her she’s right but I don’t want this all stuck inside of me waiting to explode one day. But instead I smiled and nodded. It’s hard to understand why I’m like this, maybe I’ll feel better tomorrow.

Goodnight beautiful people, I love you all dearly xoxo

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To be serious I found this in someone's blog.
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I have time to waste.

Gimme a link

Starberry · May 23, 2016

Bored said: ↑

I have time to waste.

Gimme a link
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https://thelifeofatroubledteen.wordpress.com/

ElVato · May 24, 2016

WashedUp said: ↑

Boi they ain't no time for casual gaming.

I dont mind people using all that xtra goodies, (i will call you a feg if use skele bomb )
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Last post rip
@Boehner

Autronix · May 23, 2016

tamirtov said: ↑

I'm ready !!
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If you ever come into my room you'll be kicked eZ pZ Lemon Squeeze :>

CityCat · May 24, 2016

But...i was winning still, i dont remember you ever beating me. I got frustrated because of how much time was being wasted when you couldve just fought me back instead of using all the items in your inventory. The comments you made in the room only added to my frustration. Example, calling me too good that you need them is just patronizing me for you to use your items. I apologize if i offended you.

Autronix · May 24, 2016

CityCat said: ↑

But...i was winning still, i dont remember you ever beating me. I got frustrated because of how much time was being wasted when you couldve just fought me back instead of using all the items in your inventory. The comments you made in the room only added to my frustration. Example, calling me too good that you need them is just patronizing me for you to use your items. I apologize if i offended you.
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LastGoD · May 24, 2016

CityCat said: ↑

But...i was winning still, i dont remember you ever beating me. I got frustrated because of how much time was being wasted when you couldve just fought me back instead of using all the items in your inventory. The comments you made in the room only added to my frustration. Example, calling me too good that you need them is just patronizing me for you to use your items. I apologize if i offended you.
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damn !

Autronix · May 24, 2016

LastGoD said: ↑

damn !
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She was HP'ing him on moon until he decided to run and throw a frost bomb and after it froze her he went in and rammed her off the map like a loser.

tamirtov · May 24, 2016

Autronix said: ↑

If you ever come into my room you'll be kicked eZ pZ Lemon Squeeze :>
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